why would a guy with a girlfriend sign up to dating sites? its almost been a year and a half and he says that he loves me. he has a drinking problem, i know that. but its his excuse for everything. and he wont get help. guys suck I said I'd try and forgive him/get over it. guys suck. what can he do to regain my trust? shiiiit. I dunno. Maybe not be a dooshbag? Maybe not do shifty things...? Be a good partner to me, like I am to him. It's not always easy for me. I try hard. He thinks about himself. I love him, but will this ever work? This is not his first discretion, but he's never actually cheated on me physically... I trust that. I know he loves me. But do I deserve better? or am I too much of a realist? hmmm... who knows... I feel/felt like I've been losing weight... but the scales say that I've gained weight. Thats pretty depressing so I havent weighed myself for awhile... I feel physically inferior. Like Ive let myself go and as a result, driven my bf to look for other women. I only gained like 10 kilos. I'm only 73kgs @ 5'4. but not for long. hahaha its funny how people stop loving you if you gain weight. maybe I should dump him... become a fatty... thennnnn find love.... thennnnnn lose heaps of weight and be super sexy for the guy who loved me for my heart and soul, not my looks. I wish people would read my words. Maybe i should write more... maybe that would help.... Maybe my crazy rants arent meant for other people to know. hahahahahahaha ok bye. xx | 